Hello, my name is Renee Vincent and I am a certificated Acceptance Commitment Therapist who has completed a Bachelor of Adult Education. I am currently studying a Bachelor of Counselling with a coaching influence at Australia College Applied Psychology (ACAP). I specialise in helping my clients overcome difficulties that may be inhibiting their ability to move forward.
My Journey of Depression and Anxiety - Chapter One
It started for me when I was 12yrs, back then I didn't know, but it was my first anxiety attack. I remember being at the front gates at "Dreamworld" Queensland with my family. I remember that I was so excited and I was looking forward to the rides. Then I saw a red mark on my leg, and it was stinging, obviously got bitten by an insect. At the time I didn't THINK too much of it until my brother said to me, "You are going to die" It was those words that would remain with me for the rest of my life. I started to hyperventilate, heart racing, sweating palms and the feeling of dread like I was going to die.
I remember at that moment my world went black and then I realise I could die, maybe it was that moment that brought me into the real world of mortality. My dad comforted me and told me that it would be ok, however, after that day I had a few attacks, and they got worse when I got to year 12. I worked so hard at School, and I wanted to be a Veterinary or Marine Biologist those dreams did happen, and to me, that was the end of my LIFE. So dramatic NOW when I look back on it, but at the time it was such a big deal.
My panic attacks did visit me from time to time over the next 5yrs. However, I don't think about them too much of them. Until I started my HSC and that was a big year, I wasn't well and I kept thinking of the worse, thoughts "I am going to be failure" "I am no good", "Who is going to love me", "How will I earn money", "What if I have an illness". I can look back now at the age of 45yrs and think wow, look at those negative and deep thoughts. However, telling an irrational 17yr old mind that it will be ok is saying that Santa exists.